Signs are always accompanied with people, words, things, places, weather or even an incident. These signs were often asked by those people who are desperately in need of answers from questions and doubts in their personal lives. Most often than not, they ask for signs not because they are willing to take the risk but because they are expecting for good outcomes without thinking that everything that happens is according to God’s plan and what is the best for us.
We often assume for good things to happen that is why we end up thwarted. We should not expect for good things to occur because we might get hurt if the unexpected one will come our way and isn’t it nice when we are not anticipating and in the end, we end up flabbergasted? Yes, it was the right thing to do for us not to get hurt and be disappointed in the end but then we often forget that and it’s actually our nature to expect and assume.
A sign for me is a vital wish… It is a hope that what I will be asking from Him will really answer my uncertainties and questions obscuring my thoughts. That is why I rarely ask for signs because I don’t want to get upset in the end but then in my entire life, once I ask for signs, I always end up displeased with the result… Funny isn’t it? Sometimes, I think that what I wanted is not meant to happen because if it is… then, I should be thankful because it really means that I did something right… that my decisions are right and my doubts are wrong…
Just this January 2009, I was asking for an impossible but unexpected sign. I just want to know whether he’s the right guy or not and God really loves me because He then answer my doubt because minutes after I’ve asked that sign, He then gave it to me but was I happy? Well, it goes like this…I was at the San Pedro Church at that time, together with my friends, I was asking Him if that guy was the right one and the sign that I’ve asked from Him is that… if I’m going to see that guy tonight together with a woman and they were so happy, I am going to stop my feelings for him and then… then, as I was riding a jeepney all the way home, I was not expecting but… I saw him together with a woman… and absolutely, they were so happy… Wow! What a sign! Yes, it was what I wanted… and it hurts to admit but then I was happy that God doesn’t want me to fall for the wrong one… Tears fell from my eyes. I felt my heart is crushed into pieces. I was certainly emotional at that time… It really hurts especially that my feelings for him did grow for almost six months of having a special crush for him… But then, what should I do? Of course, forget him and move on. I am used to this… I must admit that…
However, I was not expecting that asking signs from Him will not always lead to distressful events because just last week, I have asked for a sign from Him and it definitely answers my doubt. It was the sign that I’ve been waiting for… a guy that would seriously love me for who I am and at least, would not hurt me in any way… I am not just happy… I am elated… I just hope that I will not be disappointed in the end because right now… I know he’s not perfect but I think he’s right for me and I am certain with him… I wanted to thank God because I’ve found him… Well, what should I say? I was not expecting for this sign, but then He gave it to me… isn’t it enigmatic?
An Enigmatic Sign
Signs are always accompanied with people, words, things, places, weather or even an incident. These signs were often asked by those people who are desperately in need of answers from questions and doubts in their personal lives. Most often than not, they ask for signs not because they are willing to take the risk but because they are expecting for good outcomes without thinking that everything that happens is according to God’s plan and what is the best for us.
We often assume for good things to happen that is why we end up thwarted. We should not expect for good things to occur because we might get hurt if the unexpected one will come our way and isn’t it nice when we are not anticipating and in the end, we end up flabbergasted? Yes, it was the right thing to do for us not to get hurt and be disappointed in the end but then we often forget that and it’s actually our nature to expect and assume.
A sign for me is a vital wish… It is a hope that what I will be asking from Him will really answer my uncertainties and questions obscuring my thoughts. That is why I rarely ask for signs because I don’t want to get upset in the end but then in my entire life, once I ask for signs, I always end up displeased with the result… Funny isn’t it? Sometimes, I think that what I wanted is not meant to happen because if it is… then, I should be thankful because it really means that I did something right… that my decisions are right and my doubts are wrong…
Just this January 2009, I was asking for an impossible but unexpected sign. I just want to know whether he’s the right guy or not and God really loves me because He then answer my doubt because minutes after I’ve asked that sign, He then gave it to me but was I happy? Well, it goes like this…I was at the San Pedro Church at that time, together with my friends, I was asking Him if that guy was the right one and the sign that I’ve asked from Him is that… if I’m going to see that guy tonight together with a woman and they were so happy, I am going to stop my feelings for him and then… then, as I was riding a jeepney all the way home, I was not expecting but… I saw him together with a woman… and absolutely, they were so happy… Wow! What a sign! Yes, it was what I wanted… and it hurts to admit but then I was happy that God doesn’t want me to fall for the wrong one… Tears fell from my eyes. I felt my heart is crushed into pieces. I was certainly emotional at that time… It really hurts especially that my feelings for him did grow for almost six months of having a special crush for him… But then, what should I do? Of course, forget him and move on. I am used to this… I must admit that…
However, I was not expecting that asking signs from Him will not always lead to distressful events because just last week, I have asked for a sign from Him and it definitely answers my doubt. It was the sign that I’ve been waiting for… a guy that would seriously love me for who I am and at least, would not hurt me in any way… I am not just happy… I am elated… I just hope that I will not be disappointed in the end because right now… I know he’s not perfect but I think he’s right for me and I am certain with him… I wanted to thank God because I’ve found him… Well, what should I say? I was not expecting for this sign, but then He gave it to me… isn’t it enigmatic?
A Strenuous Task
Lately, I’ve been experiencing the most exhausting weeks of my life. Projects here and there, sleepless nights and even experience to be multi-tasking. I never thought that this semester will be so stressful. In our physics subject, I never expect that our professor will be that serious to us to think that it was just a minor subject. I prefer case studies, analysis, reflections, thesis and any English related subjects rather than predicting, acting like an engineer, measuring angles, and many more. AB English major in Aeronautics, science, mathematics, social science, humanities, statistics and computer science… where can you find a course where your major subjects are not related to your course? Impossible isn’t it? Even me, I can’t even think that it would go this way… that these minor subjects will act as major subjects.
How I wish that this semester would end right now for I cannot bear the pain and sacrifices anymore. Tears would always fell from eyes because I want to rest but I am not allowed to it is because I need to study and I need to finish this and that.
Anyway, I can now prove that I’m capable to be multi-tasking and I can answer questions which are not actually related to my field. Lesson learned for the semester!!!
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
A Glimpse of Hope Sonnet 23423 (If you love me too)
Sobbing at something makes me to recall,
Of things that I don’t want to remember,
Someone who have hurt me and made me fall,
And makes me grasp it’s rude to be sober,
Moving on was not that hard to achieve,
He’s not the only one whom I’ll adore,
Things do come and go and I do believe,
I’ll be a learned one as of this lore.
Red lights told me to stop, green lights says go
It’s a sign that I should look one more time
Because these are the things that I must do
Charmed once more, of course it isn’t a crime
I am not frightened I’ll be misconstrue
Because I can find another who’s true.
--- hobby ko na ang gumawa ng sonnet ---
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Through the Rain
“Don’t ever lose hope… God is always there… and your loved ones will be there for you too…” sometimes, it gets too tiring to live our lives but then, we should not think that way. First and foremost, our lives are gifts from our God and we should not waste it nor get tired to live with it. We should be thankful because God gave this life to us in order for us to live it with purpose…
This past few days, I’ve been experiencing lots of stresses in my school and I was always crying because I’m so stressed… all of my subjects have lots to do, the teachers itself pressure us and it makes me realize how hard is it to be a student… but then, later on, I was used to it that if don’t have something to do, it makes me feel bored. Funny isn’t it? Maybe because, I was used to do lots of things that is why when I have only one thing to do, I felt sick… hahahahaha… Pait jud ang maging USEPIAN… Dili lalim…
But then, in every problem that I’ve encountered, I’ve realized that I can still make it through the rain… because God’s up there and you were always there… A million thanks!!!
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Status: Still Single
"I have learned to search for my own happiness by putting boundaries to all my desires in life rather than attempting to fulfill them.” It might hurt me but then, it’s better to stay this way…
Heart’s Day is fast approaching… ahhhhhh… 13 days to go… The day for lovers… the day for two people falling in-love with each other… ME? I don’t celebrate Hearts Day because I don’t have someone to spend with during that romantic day… but then, my “barkada” have plans… we are going to celebrate during that day for being SINGLE… hahaha… isn’t it nice? It doesn’t mean naman di ba na kapag VALENTINE’s Day kailangang lovers lang ang magcelebrate… we have our rights to celebrate in any occasion and its my right to celebrate that day with my friends… well, what should I say? With or without a partner, I am HAPPY and CONTENTED of my status: STILL SINGLE…
Saturday, January 31, 2009
A Poignant Daylight
Thwarted while she's glaring at the window,
The splendid dawn reminds her of a day,
Became downcast like there’s no tomorrow,
Untold ardor, she wants to give away,
She’s trying to ease the pain in her heart,
Many times she'd failed fallen every time,
Tears always fell and that’s the saddest part,
He held her hand and it makes her sublime.
And now she’d realize she’s oblivious,
The end is near but she wasn’t frantic,
Realizing it’s too much, he’s spurious,
She desires to go up in an attic,
Gazing at a gay memorable room,
Moves ahead and a weeping soul then loom.
wahahaha, makasunggo maghimu ug sonnet
Thursday, January 22, 2009
A Wish
How does it feel to be unnoticed by the person you notice the most? It’s like offering the most beautiful portrait to a blind person… this text message that I’ve received a month ago from my friend is still bothering me. Why? I used to ask myself, why is it that I’m still waiting or hoping that someday, that someone in my life will notice me like I’ve noticed him all day long. I always ask for signs… looking for answers to all the questions in my mind… is the absence of sign a sign? Maybe it is but I still wish it to come… that someday… he will notice me and will ask me to be his friend… that’s what I’ve been wishing for… no more…
