Signs are always accompanied with people, words, things, places, weather or even an incident. These signs were often asked by those people who are desperately in need of answers from questions and doubts in their personal lives. Most often than not, they ask for signs not because they are willing to take the risk but because they are expecting for good outcomes without thinking that everything that happens is according to God’s plan and what is the best for us.
We often assume for good things to happen that is why we end up thwarted. We should not expect for good things to occur because we might get hurt if the unexpected one will come our way and isn’t it nice when we are not anticipating and in the end, we end up flabbergasted? Yes, it was the right thing to do for us not to get hurt and be disappointed in the end but then we often forget that and it’s actually our nature to expect and assume.
A sign for me is a vital wish… It is a hope that what I will be asking from Him will really answer my uncertainties and questions obscuring my thoughts. That is why I rarely ask for signs because I don’t want to get upset in the end but then in my entire life, once I ask for signs, I always end up displeased with the result… Funny isn’t it? Sometimes, I think that what I wanted is not meant to happen because if it is… then, I should be thankful because it really means that I did something right… that my decisions are right and my doubts are wrong…
Just this January 2009, I was asking for an impossible but unexpected sign. I just want to know whether he’s the right guy or not and God really loves me because He then answer my doubt because minutes after I’ve asked that sign, He then gave it to me but was I happy? Well, it goes like this…I was at the San Pedro Church at that time, together with my friends, I was asking Him if that guy was the right one and the sign that I’ve asked from Him is that… if I’m going to see that guy tonight together with a woman and they were so happy, I am going to stop my feelings for him and then… then, as I was riding a jeepney all the way home, I was not expecting but… I saw him together with a woman… and absolutely, they were so happy… Wow! What a sign! Yes, it was what I wanted… and it hurts to admit but then I was happy that God doesn’t want me to fall for the wrong one… Tears fell from my eyes. I felt my heart is crushed into pieces. I was certainly emotional at that time… It really hurts especially that my feelings for him did grow for almost six months of having a special crush for him… But then, what should I do? Of course, forget him and move on. I am used to this… I must admit that…
However, I was not expecting that asking signs from Him will not always lead to distressful events because just last week, I have asked for a sign from Him and it definitely answers my doubt. It was the sign that I’ve been waiting for… a guy that would seriously love me for who I am and at least, would not hurt me in any way… I am not just happy… I am elated… I just hope that I will not be disappointed in the end because right now… I know he’s not perfect but I think he’s right for me and I am certain with him… I wanted to thank God because I’ve found him… Well, what should I say? I was not expecting for this sign, but then He gave it to me… isn’t it enigmatic?
An Enigmatic Sign
Signs are always accompanied with people, words, things, places, weather or even an incident. These signs were often asked by those people who are desperately in need of answers from questions and doubts in their personal lives. Most often than not, they ask for signs not because they are willing to take the risk but because they are expecting for good outcomes without thinking that everything that happens is according to God’s plan and what is the best for us.
We often assume for good things to happen that is why we end up thwarted. We should not expect for good things to occur because we might get hurt if the unexpected one will come our way and isn’t it nice when we are not anticipating and in the end, we end up flabbergasted? Yes, it was the right thing to do for us not to get hurt and be disappointed in the end but then we often forget that and it’s actually our nature to expect and assume.
A sign for me is a vital wish… It is a hope that what I will be asking from Him will really answer my uncertainties and questions obscuring my thoughts. That is why I rarely ask for signs because I don’t want to get upset in the end but then in my entire life, once I ask for signs, I always end up displeased with the result… Funny isn’t it? Sometimes, I think that what I wanted is not meant to happen because if it is… then, I should be thankful because it really means that I did something right… that my decisions are right and my doubts are wrong…
Just this January 2009, I was asking for an impossible but unexpected sign. I just want to know whether he’s the right guy or not and God really loves me because He then answer my doubt because minutes after I’ve asked that sign, He then gave it to me but was I happy? Well, it goes like this…I was at the San Pedro Church at that time, together with my friends, I was asking Him if that guy was the right one and the sign that I’ve asked from Him is that… if I’m going to see that guy tonight together with a woman and they were so happy, I am going to stop my feelings for him and then… then, as I was riding a jeepney all the way home, I was not expecting but… I saw him together with a woman… and absolutely, they were so happy… Wow! What a sign! Yes, it was what I wanted… and it hurts to admit but then I was happy that God doesn’t want me to fall for the wrong one… Tears fell from my eyes. I felt my heart is crushed into pieces. I was certainly emotional at that time… It really hurts especially that my feelings for him did grow for almost six months of having a special crush for him… But then, what should I do? Of course, forget him and move on. I am used to this… I must admit that…
However, I was not expecting that asking signs from Him will not always lead to distressful events because just last week, I have asked for a sign from Him and it definitely answers my doubt. It was the sign that I’ve been waiting for… a guy that would seriously love me for who I am and at least, would not hurt me in any way… I am not just happy… I am elated… I just hope that I will not be disappointed in the end because right now… I know he’s not perfect but I think he’s right for me and I am certain with him… I wanted to thank God because I’ve found him… Well, what should I say? I was not expecting for this sign, but then He gave it to me… isn’t it enigmatic?
A Strenuous Task
Lately, I’ve been experiencing the most exhausting weeks of my life. Projects here and there, sleepless nights and even experience to be multi-tasking. I never thought that this semester will be so stressful. In our physics subject, I never expect that our professor will be that serious to us to think that it was just a minor subject. I prefer case studies, analysis, reflections, thesis and any English related subjects rather than predicting, acting like an engineer, measuring angles, and many more. AB English major in Aeronautics, science, mathematics, social science, humanities, statistics and computer science… where can you find a course where your major subjects are not related to your course? Impossible isn’t it? Even me, I can’t even think that it would go this way… that these minor subjects will act as major subjects.
How I wish that this semester would end right now for I cannot bear the pain and sacrifices anymore. Tears would always fell from eyes because I want to rest but I am not allowed to it is because I need to study and I need to finish this and that.
Anyway, I can now prove that I’m capable to be multi-tasking and I can answer questions which are not actually related to my field. Lesson learned for the semester!!!
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
A Glimpse of Hope Sonnet 23423 (If you love me too)
Sobbing at something makes me to recall,
Of things that I don’t want to remember,
Someone who have hurt me and made me fall,
And makes me grasp it’s rude to be sober,
Moving on was not that hard to achieve,
He’s not the only one whom I’ll adore,
Things do come and go and I do believe,
I’ll be a learned one as of this lore.
Red lights told me to stop, green lights says go
It’s a sign that I should look one more time
Because these are the things that I must do
Charmed once more, of course it isn’t a crime
I am not frightened I’ll be misconstrue
Because I can find another who’s true.
--- hobby ko na ang gumawa ng sonnet ---
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Through the Rain
“Don’t ever lose hope… God is always there… and your loved ones will be there for you too…” sometimes, it gets too tiring to live our lives but then, we should not think that way. First and foremost, our lives are gifts from our God and we should not waste it nor get tired to live with it. We should be thankful because God gave this life to us in order for us to live it with purpose…
This past few days, I’ve been experiencing lots of stresses in my school and I was always crying because I’m so stressed… all of my subjects have lots to do, the teachers itself pressure us and it makes me realize how hard is it to be a student… but then, later on, I was used to it that if don’t have something to do, it makes me feel bored. Funny isn’t it? Maybe because, I was used to do lots of things that is why when I have only one thing to do, I felt sick… hahahahaha… Pait jud ang maging USEPIAN… Dili lalim…
But then, in every problem that I’ve encountered, I’ve realized that I can still make it through the rain… because God’s up there and you were always there… A million thanks!!!
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Status: Still Single
"I have learned to search for my own happiness by putting boundaries to all my desires in life rather than attempting to fulfill them.” It might hurt me but then, it’s better to stay this way…
Heart’s Day is fast approaching… ahhhhhh… 13 days to go… The day for lovers… the day for two people falling in-love with each other… ME? I don’t celebrate Hearts Day because I don’t have someone to spend with during that romantic day… but then, my “barkada” have plans… we are going to celebrate during that day for being SINGLE… hahaha… isn’t it nice? It doesn’t mean naman di ba na kapag VALENTINE’s Day kailangang lovers lang ang magcelebrate… we have our rights to celebrate in any occasion and its my right to celebrate that day with my friends… well, what should I say? With or without a partner, I am HAPPY and CONTENTED of my status: STILL SINGLE…
Saturday, January 31, 2009
A Poignant Daylight
Thwarted while she's glaring at the window,
The splendid dawn reminds her of a day,
Became downcast like there’s no tomorrow,
Untold ardor, she wants to give away,
She’s trying to ease the pain in her heart,
Many times she'd failed fallen every time,
Tears always fell and that’s the saddest part,
He held her hand and it makes her sublime.
And now she’d realize she’s oblivious,
The end is near but she wasn’t frantic,
Realizing it’s too much, he’s spurious,
She desires to go up in an attic,
Gazing at a gay memorable room,
Moves ahead and a weeping soul then loom.
wahahaha, makasunggo maghimu ug sonnet
Thursday, January 22, 2009
A Wish
How does it feel to be unnoticed by the person you notice the most? It’s like offering the most beautiful portrait to a blind person… this text message that I’ve received a month ago from my friend is still bothering me. Why? I used to ask myself, why is it that I’m still waiting or hoping that someday, that someone in my life will notice me like I’ve noticed him all day long. I always ask for signs… looking for answers to all the questions in my mind… is the absence of sign a sign? Maybe it is but I still wish it to come… that someday… he will notice me and will ask me to be his friend… that’s what I’ve been wishing for… no more…
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Again and Again
“If we cannot implement our new year’s resolutions, it’s still not a bad idea to make some.” People tend to make a new year’s resolution every year but while they are saying those promises and changes, they end up lying to themselves because throughout the year, nothing change, it’s still the same routine, same attitude and same insights… well, it’s not impossible that we can actually make our resolutions for this year to come true… we just have to be true to ourselves and we should commit to ourselves that we are going to change the things that we are wishing and what we are dreaming to happen… it’s not impossible… I tell you…
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Christmas is fast approaching...
Indeed, Christmas is fast approaching… How would I describe this year’s Christmas… As the month of December came, I already felt the chilly breeze of the wind and it makes me excited to the fact that I’m already thinking of what I will be going to give to my loved ones. I really can’t explain the feeling… a little bit nervous but excited… happy but sad… sounds weird but that’s how I feel at this moment and to explain it is too hard for me… well, the truth is… I’m just happy because it was Jesus’ birthday… that’s the best explanation I could give…
Nightfall’s Confessions
Way back then, to tell you the truth, I never adore mythical works because I find it very boring. I don’t even try to watch movies and read books that are fictional except for those fantasy ones. Legends and myths were not renowned to me even if I do remember that we have tackled it when we were in elementary and high school. Another reason is that, I felt sleepy and I felt like it’s just a waste of time so I didn’t have the time to realize how wonderful literature is.
When I enter college and took up the course, AB in English, it is where I truly appreciate literature and then I realize, it wasn’t that boring after all. It was fascinating, captivating, and undeniably breathtaking. What more can I ask for? I begin to dream, to fascinate and to be charmed with the tricks, spells, crafts and many more.
One of the best movies I’ve ever watched so far is the TWILIGHT written by Stephanie Mayer. How would I describe the movie? Splendid? Riveting? I was not just enthralled with EDWARD Cullens, I was not disturbed and I am not just dreaming… it’s true… I was extremely awestruck with him and I never wished it before… I wish he would be the right person for me… someone who’s the same with him… no matter what happens… no matter what’s his flaws and faults, I will never neglect nor betrayed him… I will accept him for who he was… I’m not desperate, I’m just fascinated… and how I wish I was his BELLA… wherein he will fall in love and he will never fall out of love with me… forever will start to happen and it will never end… I wish nothing else… just to be with him …
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Don’t look for love…
At the start of this semester, one peculiar thing has bothered me a lot all throughout the days… It’s hard to explain but I think something in my feelings has changed. A change that I should never felt because it might hurt me in the end… What is it?
Many people would say that the more you deny that you have no feelings for someone, the more that your feelings will grow… For me, I always advice my friends about that thing but it never happened to me not until now. Maybe it’s strange but I think or I should better say, I was slowly falling in love for someone whom I think is very impossible to love me back. I was not hoping because I don’t want to get hurt. I often say to others that they should not assume that the one they like or love will have the same feelings with them because of course, we don’t own or hold their hearts to love us too… But I guess, I should better advice myself about that thing.
I never think that love would come again to me… For more or less two years in my life after my last relationship, I was contented being a single or I should better say that I tried to be contented with my status. I was happy but not so much. I was free but sometimes I wish someone would stop me from doing a thing. I don’t need to fix any problems but sometimes I wish I have. I was glad seeing sweet lovers but sometimes I get jealous too. Is it wrong to be single? No, of course. It’s just that, it’s not always right to be alone. Sometimes, we need companion, we need an inspiration, we need someone to rely on aside from our friends. Someone who could understand us and someone who will take care of us when we don’t have time for ourselves. Someone who would show his concern to us and someone who will share his love to us.
I’m not looking for love… I just badly need it (sometimes, I would think that way). Many times in my life, I always think that I was lack of love… Well, it’s not actually true because my family and friends do love me… I just think that way because I wish I could go into a relationship. Funny isn’t it? Well, as a matter of fact, the reason why I didn’t go into a relationship because I was looking for someone who would fit my standards but I guess I was wrong of thinking that way… meeting your standards will never satisfy you, actually. Well, I guess God do has a purpose on why He didn’t allow me to go into a relationship maybe because I have something else to do rather than this one. So, what’s the lesson? Don’t find love, let love find you. Just wait. It will come. Far better than what you’ve dreamt of.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
It’s part of growing up!
This expression has been my favorite punch line to other people especially if they commit a mistake without thinking that it would happen to me too. No one is perfect in this world and so am I. Every individual is facing different obstacles on the way, whether it is good or bad. These things came into our lives because it has a purpose whether to make us strong if it is a failure or to make us gain our confidence if it is an accomplishment.
Just after the semestral break in our school, I already encounter one of the most excruciating problems in my entire life and that is when I fail my subject in Statistics I. I don’t know how would I explain the feeling but let me narrate to you what had happened during that day. The date was October 21, 2008 between 10:00 and 11:00 in the morning when a friend of mine had texted me and her message goes this way: “Maam Terror had already released the grades and I’m sorry to tell you Yan, you didn’t make it.” At first, I close my eyes and I glance again into my cell phone making sure that I was wrong but I’m not. I’m waiting for her text again if she will going to tell me that those things that she have said earlier was only a joke but I was frustrated because my cell phone didn’t rang once again.
I then feel the pain deep within my heart. It’s like there is a small pin that hits my heart which became big and big and it really hurts a lot. My tears fell and I wish I could stop it from falling but I can’t, it just drop continuously. I’m not just upset, I was blaming myself and ask God: Why is this happening to me? Why me? Have I been not a hardworking student? Disobedient daughter? Unpleasant sister? Violator in this society? Am I not worthy to pass the subject even if I give my best just to be part of the passing grade that she had given?
Those questions make me feel at worst. I felt like I’m not a good follower of God and these things happened to me because I don’t have faith on Him. The pain had reached at its peak after I was able to open up with this problem with my parents and my sister. I felt guilty because I was not able to pass it. I’m thinking of their hardships in their work like facing hardheaded people and advising them to follow the rules and regulations and another one is that, my sister is so intelligent while me? I even fail my subject, how could I praise myself?
The whole day I was crying but then I was relieved because of the advices that my parents, my sister and my friends have given me in order for me to be reassured and then I realized so many things and I was able to promise to myself that I would not cry anymore with regards to this problem. What are those things? This is just an obstacle in my life and there’s a lot more and instead of thinking negative about it, I should be thinking in the positive way like God has a purpose why I have failed on this and this failure will make me a more determined person to strive hard with my studies, putting all my trust on Him and believed in my capability that I can overcome all the difficulties that I will be going to encounter while I am taking my path to success.
In Psalm 34:17, it says that “The righteous cry out and the Lord hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles”. This only means that God will never leave us alone. He will always be there to guide, protect and deliver us out of all the troubles that we are experiencing. And there is one more thing that makes me alive and happy today. What is it? It is when I finally accept it. The only thing that could heal all the wounds is acceptance and I did it! And I can now praise myself!
This failure is just part of my past and I realize that…… This is just part of growing up! Wonderful isn’t it?
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Depiction of Flowers
Once you will see a flower, your first description for it would be : Beautiful. But, did you know that a flower has a variety of meanings. Researchers or even experts disagree with what the people is thinking regarding flowers who do have meanings. But still, it’s not bad if we do believe on this. Here are some of the flowers/plants who is believed to have an implication (source from http://www.800florals.com/care/meaning.asp ) :
Acacia which means concealed love, beauty in retirement, or chaste love
Begonia which means beware
Cactus which means endurance
Camellia (pink) which means longing for you
Camellia (red) which means you’re a flame in my heart
Camellia (white) which means you’re adorable
Carnation (general) which means fascination or woman in love
Carnation (pink) which means I’ll never forget you
Carnation (red) which means my heart aches for you or admiration
Carnation (purple) which means capriciousness
Carnation (solid color) which means yes
Carnation (striped) which means refusal
Carnation (white) which means Sweet and Lovely, Innocence, Pure Love, Woman's Good Luck Gift
Carnation (yellow) which means rejection
Chrysanthemum (general) which means cheerfulness and rest
Chrysanthemum (white) which means truth
Chrysanthemum (yellow) which means slighted love
Daffodil which means unrequited love
Daisy which means innocence, loyal love and purity; others define daisy as secret love like in the movie, Daisy (Korean movie)
Dandelion which means faithfulness and happiness
Fern which means magic and fascination
Forget-me-not which means true love or memories
Gardenia which means secret love or you’re lovely
Hyacinth (general) which means games and sports
Hyacinth (blue) which means constancy
Hyacinth (purple) which means I am sorry or please forgive me
Hyacinth (red or pink) which means play
Hyacinth (white) which means loveliness or I’ll pray for you
Hyacinth (yellow) which means jealousy
Ivy which means friendship, affection, fidelity or wedded love
Lily (white) which means virginity, purity and majesty
Lily (yellow) which means false and gay
Lily (calla) which means beauty
Lily (day) which means Chinese emblem for mother
Lily (eucharis) which means maiden charms
Lily (tiger) which means wealth and pride
Lily of the valley which means sweetness, humility
Magnolia which means nobility
Marigold which means cruelty, grief and jealousy
Orange blossom which means innocence, eternal love
Orchid which means love, beauty, refinement
Orchid (cattleya) which means mature charm
Petunia which means anger
Pine which means hope and pity
Rose (bridal) which means happy love
Rose (dark crimson) mourning
Rose (hibiscus) which means delicate beauty
Rose (leaf) which means you may hope
Rose (pink) which means perfect happiness
Rose (red) which means love
Rose (tea) which means I’ll remember always
Rose (thornless) which means love at first sight
Rose (white) which means innocence and purity
Rose (white and red mixed) which means unity
Rose (white-dried) which means death
Rose (yellow) decrease of love, jealousy
Rosebud which means beauty and youth, a heart innocent of love
Rosebud (red) which means pure and lovely
Rosebud (white) which means girlhood
Rosebud (moss) which means confessions of love
Rosebud (bouquet of mature blooms) which means gratitude
Roses (single full bloom) which means I love you and I still love you
Tulip (general) which means perfect love
Tulip (red) which means declaration of love
Tulip (variegated) which means beautiful eyes
Tulip (yellow) which means there’s a sunshine in your smile
Violet which means modesty
Violet (blue) which means faithfulness
Violet (white) which means let’s take a chance
In http://www.beyondblossoms.com/flower_meanings.php, there are various flowers/plants wherein some has the same meaning but others are different from the previous description of flowers I have discussed like:
Carnations which means fascination, devoted Love, Chrysanthemum which means cheerfulness, innocence, Dahlia which means dignity, elegance, Lilies which means purity, faith, friendship, devotion, sophistication, beauty, Orchids which means seduction, preciousness; Roses which means I love you, unconscious beauty; White roses which means spiritual love, purity; Yellow roses which means joy, gladness; Orange roses: fascinated, enthusiastic; Pink roses which means grace, gentility and Tulips which means perfect lover, fame
But for me, no matter what the explanation of the flower has, the most important is that we are happy to see these flowers that were given to us by our God in order for us to appreciate, value and treasure the gift that He had given to us, and that’s what matter the most.
Monday, October 6, 2008
Ang Lihim sa Likod ng Salamin
“Mararamdaman mo ang sakit kapag ika’y nag-iisa na.“ amin ng dalagitang nakatulala habang nakatingin sa labas ng bintana.
Sa isang kuwarto, sa isang sulok, naroon ang isang dalagang humahagulhol. Nagmumukha na siyang asong ulol. Pilit na pinipigilan ang sarili na mapaiyak pero sadyang patuloy na pumapatak ang mga luhang dulot ng mapait na pag-ibig na nararanasan. Paano maiiwasan ? Paano makakalimutan ? kung saang sulok siya mapatingin ay naroroon ang guni-guni ng kahapon. Siya ay napalunok. Narinig na may kumakatok. Natahimik. Hindi umiimik. Mayamaya’y bumukas. Napapikit dahil sa ilaw na nakabukas. Sinigawan. Binulyawan. Napatalikod. Pilit iniignora ang tensyon sa pagitan ng dalawa. Siya tuloy ay nagmumukhang kawawa. Aakmang aalis. Pero siya’y nagtatagis. Napaupo. Nanlulumo. Nagmamakaawa. Kaawa-awa. Tumayo. Nagpaalam na lalayo. Pinigilan. Walang alinlangan. Itinulak. Lango na sa alak. Iniwan. Nagmumukhang basahan.
Bakit nga ba ka’y pait ng pag-ibig? Puwede bang huwag na itong lumapit ? kung pag-ibig ay sadyang masakit, bakit kailangan pang maramdaman ang hapdi at ang bunga nitong napakalupit?
Napatingin siya sa kawalan ? Pilit inaalala ang mga nagawang kasalanan. Napaiyak. Puso ay mabibiyak. Saka pa naalala ang mga nagawa. Isang araw. Binisita. Sinita. Nagmamakaawa. Mahalin at ito’y maawa. Siya ay buntis. Nasasaktan na ng labis. Siya ay desperada. Lahat ng magagawa ay ipinarada. Humihiling. Siya ay napailing. May iba ng mahal. Siya ay banal. Nagalit at nasuklam. Nagmumukhang mangkukulam. Maghihigante. Kinuha ang kutsilyo sa pahinante. Sumugod. Pinigilan. Hinarangan. Ikaw ay natuwa. Siya’y nasaksak. Ang mahal mo’y bumagsak. Napaiyak. Babae ay iyong binugbog. Dahil siya ang bagong mahal ng iyong iniirog. Ikaw ay tumawa. Ngunit ikaw ngayon ay masama.
Ngunit siya ay nabuhay. Buhay mo ay nawalan na ng kulay. Siya ay lumapit. Ikaw ay napakapit. Niyakap. Ikaw ay nasa alapaap. Patawarin. Napailing dahil ikaw ay salarin. Nagpaliwanag. Ikaw ay nabigyan ng liwanag. Nagising. Naliliyo pa rin dahil sa pagkalasing. Natahimik at napatigil. Dapat sana ay kanyang pinigilan. Hindi tuloy siya ngayon ay nasa kulungan. Tumayo. Humayo. Lumapit. Napapikit. Napatingin sa repleksyon. Binuksan ang salamin. Napangiti. Parang kinikiliti. Tumayo. Umakyat sa bangko. Itinulak. May binabalak. Nasasakal. Mukha ay parang puting asukal. Napaluha. Narinig ang pag-uha. Dahan-dahang napapikit. Hapdi ay nakaukit. Babaeng nakabitin. Saksi ang salamin. Pusong iniwan. Pusong kinalimutan. Pusong tinalikuran. Tanging ang salamin lang ang may alam ng katotohanan.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
The Truth Hurts
As defined in the dictionary, truth means a fact that has been verified and hurt means the source of pain. For you, how would you define truth and hurt? For me, when these two words are combined, I would define it as Sadness, Distress, Grief, Forfeit, Self-pity, Loneliness and Heartrending.
There are some instances that we are trying to smile and pretend that we are not affected or we are not hurt to discern that the truth is really a painful one. Here are some situations that most of us had undergone:
* Why is it so hard to forget someone who in the first place was never been yours?
* The hardest part of walking away from you is to know that you won’t run after me
* How does it feel to be unnoticed by the person you notice most? It’s like offering your most beautiful portrait to a blind person.
* Sometimes, you have to try not to care no matter how much you do because sometimes, you can mean nothing to someone who means everything to you.
* I asked him, do you love me? He said: let’s just be friends. I asked again, he told me the same answer. Then one day, he said: I love you and I answered: I know because we’re friends right?
* One day, he’ll care for me like I cared for him, one day he’ll miss me like I missed him, one day he’ll love me and I may not feel the same way anymore.
* Because of you, I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me
* Sometimes, we tend to ignore the truth, the pain, and even the consequences without realizing that we are doing it for someone who will ignore us after all.
But despite of this dilemma in our lives, we find it as a lesson for us and to see the brighter side of it and that is: we became much stronger after each distressing days in our lives.
Right now, how do I see love? How do I see this person whose glance was never mine? How can I elude his smile that wasn’t meant for me? How can I forget him who in the first place, never knew me? Even if my heart wants to lead me in love’s journey, I can no longer follow. The wounds have injured me too much that all I am able to do now is just sit and dream. Hope has already left my heart but the nice part is that my strong faith remains. I consider love’s journey a battle where my heart is a soldier who fights for the love I truly believe in.
I have failed many times, but I have a very strong vision of love and
THAT KEEPS ME ALIVE all these years…
Stop… Look… & … Listen
Stop!... According to the study made by the US researchers, Suicide is the third leading cause of death for adolescents and young adults with age between 15-24 years old (http://www.mentalhelp.net/. It has been found out also that the percentage of those people who committed suicide is rising every year. Why? What’s the reason behind? How can we stop this predicament? First, let’s tackle the persons who are involved in this case. These persons may possibly be your friend, your neighbor, your lover or even the members of your family. Second, some of these people tend to misinterpret the things that are happening around them that’s why they feel like they are alone when the people they’ve been expecting to talk to them or care for them doesn’t even show their concern. Some behaviors which started this kind of feeling are the following: Frustration, Conflict & Adjustment.
Look… around you… Haven’t you observed that a number of people are getting emotional? Why is this so? Some says that it starts with just a simple problem in the house. It may be physical, emotional, mental or financial problem and is later influenced by the environment outside the house. The reason behind these suicidal attempts is just because of “lack of love”. They are longing for this love which they haven’t found from their family, friends or even the one they’ve loved. It is said that when they get to be frustrated or experience some conflicts and adjustments, they became depressed. Depression as explained in Psychology is always accompanied by remorse, feelings of inferiority and apprehension (Beltran, 1996). These people when they regret the things that they have done will make them feel that they are so imperfect and nobody will love them the way they wanted to be loved. Sometimes, when these people felt inferiority, they tend to compare themselves to those persons who are much gifted, more attractive and smarter than them and because of this, they are looking for an outlet to express their feelings through wearing black t-shirts or black eyeliner, listening to emotional songs such as love songs and is isolated in their respective rooms and if they cant bear the feeling anymore, that’s the time when they have decided to put an end to their lives.
Listen… to them… they need you physically, mentally & emotionally or even financially… Don’t dump them… Don’t ever avoid them… Support them… Love them and don’t ever dare not to care for them…
Sunday, September 14, 2008
How will Team Philippines make it out on the Olympics 2008?
Literally speaking, we all know that it is impossible for our country to reap a medal in this venerable event because we are all aware that various athletes from different countries are also competing for the same pride and honor.
Ever since in the history, Philippines was not able to obtain any medal since the Olympics had started. Why? What’s the reason behind? Are our athletes not capable enough to compete with them? Or should we blame the government because they were not able to support the needs of our competitors?
Pride or what you called Self-esteem is the number one reason why the participants of this sports event strive hard not only for themselves but also for the honor of the country which they belong. This feeling motivates them to reach their goals and that is to bring home the gold medal.
In relation to that, what makes other countries earn these medals is all because of the support that they have which motivates them to do their best. We should not wonder why countries like China & USA always win in the Olympics. First and foremost, their government was supportive to them. They do have funds which are intended only for the players for their daily practice on their respective events and they are given so much time for their trainings.
What about us? Our government wasn’t thinking to allocate some budget that is intended for our players only because if they did, many of our citizens will be getting poorer.
The recent Olympics, again, our country wasn’t able to gain even one bronze but despite of this, we’re still proud of them for their efforts, their hardships and sacrifices and for us, they are still winners and heroes of our country.
By the next Olympics, we should not lose hope to try our best because the only thing that we have that others don’t have is our faith in God.
What is a Dream?
In our Psychology subject, I’ve ascertained that Dreams are those hidden conflicts, desires and wishes in our lives that don’t occur in real life.
But don’t you know that each of our dreams has its own implication and interpretations? At first, I was thinking about this question and I ask myself: Did I ever think that my dream has a meaning? Like when my crush is courting me in my dream, does it mean that in actual, it might happen too? The answer to that is no because ever since, I thought that my dream was just a product of what I’ve thought during the day before I’ve slept at night but I was wrong.
In our class in Humanities I, the first assignment that we had was all about King Nebuchadnezzar’s dream. He also asked us what the dream is all about, the interpretation and its relevance to the past, present and future of humanities, and etc. After which, I have discovered the answer to my question. It was written in the Bible, the Old Testament, Daniel Chapter 2.
One day, King Nebuchadnezzar had dreams and he was very bothered that he summoned all the magicians, sorcerers, enchanters and the astrologers to interpret the dream for him. The question is: did it happen that a man can interpret the dream of others which they can’t remember? The King was furious when his people told him that they cannot interpret his dream that’s why he ordered the persecution of all the wise men in Babylon.
Daniel was one of those wise men who will be persecuted that’s why he told Arioch, the King’s captain guard to give him time to interpret the dream of the king.
Given this problem, Daniel prayed to God that He may reveal this secret to him. One night, Daniel was shown the king’s dream and its interpretation and he hurriedly go to the king and unveil his dream.
It was a statue with different minerals on it and represents various kingdoms that will rule. These sovereignties are strong during their time of ruling their respective empires but as time goes by, these realms later deteriorate. The statue has its interpretation of the kingdoms: The head of gold signifies Babylon, the Breast and Arms of Silver signifies Medo-Persia, Belly and thighs of Brass signifies Greece, Legs of Iron signifies Rome, Feet & Toes of partly iron, partly clay signifies Europe. But another kingdom will emerge and that is the Kingdom of God that signifies the stone which will be thrown to the statue and it will turn into pieces.
The implication of this dream in the past, present and the future of humanities is that: whenever we had problems, we should not forget to pray to God because it is the only way for us to unravel our problems.
That is the whole story of Nebuchadnezzar’s dream and I’ve realize that in real life, really, our dreams have explanations but we just don’t mind about it.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done?
Given this question, the very first thing you will do is to think it over before you will finally realize the answer to this question. But for me, I wasn’t able to visualize the hardest thing that I’ve ever done in my life because the fact that it was an impromptu speech given by our professor in Speech and Oral Communications.
Seconds passed by before I had my idea on this topic. And then I said: “What’s the hardest thing that I’ve ever done in my life? It was when I was pretending to be happy when deep within this heart of mine I felt the opposite. Why I was pretending to be happy? It is because of two reasons: (1) because I don’t want others to see me hurting and (2) I want to hide the pain that I’ve felt so others would not worry about me. I tell you, it is very hard for the reason that you keep on pretending in front of many people that you are fine when in truth, you’re not. But the lesson behind that is: not at all times, you need to hide what you feel, it is not wrong to show what you feel to others, instead, you became stronger because you were able to prove to others that you can actually release the untold feelings in your heart.” I was contented after I’ve done my speech because I was able to overcome this fear of having that impromptu speech. How about you? What’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done in your life?
